April 29th; My Age Revealed

Well, I'm kind of tired of keeping my age a secret. It feels like I was very ashamed of my age, especially when I read my first post on both of my blogs. And I haven't been able to get my previous blog back, yet. To be honest, I don't think I will. It's upsetting, but "Oh, well". I too can't believe that that was just said by me..

Anyways, today is my birthday and I'm officially turning 13 at 10:35 or 11:35 tonight (it's a pretty sort of complicated short story). I'm pretty excited and upset in a way because.. I'm a teenager and no longer a child but I'm still a kid? It feels like it was just yesterday that my mom bought me a book at a clinic and and then it was stolen in just a few hours by a homeless woman at the "6 blocks away" park. That's something I remember from when I was about 4 or 5. I felt very uncomfortable and insecure knowing that I couldn't even leave a book on the slide for less than a minute or two, maybe three.. or four. Yes, my friend and there's probably a lot more of those "It feels like yesterday.." feelings to come as I grow older.

From what I remember, I've always wanted to get to the age of 20 because I would get that feeling that says just one more year and I'll be able to do anything that I wasn't supposed to do. To me that's the age where I'm kind of new but old at the same time. Where I'll be able to make my own choices (even though peers could still come in). But what scares me is College. It's not necessarily the hard work but I'm not sure I really want to discuss this on my blog - well, at least not yet.

Oh, and I wasn't really ashamed of letting others know my age. It was most likely for the safety reasons and I thought that people would just leave my blog (if they ever somehow just sort of ended up here) if they knew my age (I'm sure that's not really being ashamed). So, I've just decided if my age really matters that badly that it's troubling for them to read my blog well then...... "I don't know" but that doesn't really seem to bother me as much anymore.

by Sarah, who made it during class. Thank you!

-VALy, <3

Can I whistle?

No, no, unfortunately I cannot whistle.

And if you have read my previous blog before, then you know that I've googled "How to whistle" more than once. I also promised to my self (sort of, not really) that I would check this site (I no longer have the link) periodically and follow the instructions. The site warned me that it would take a few weeks. But I decided to say that I would follow it anyway. Which I didn't.

And so now I've been thinking about it and I want to learn how to whistle. So, I'm just going to try to find another helpful site that won't admit (if it actually should take a few weeks) so that I'm not as discouraged while I learn.

So wish me luck (the same words I said in my previous blog for the same post) and I'll let you know when I'm an actual whistler.

-VALy, <3

No one said that restarting would be easy

It's been about 2 weeks since I've blogged. It was somewhere at the beginning of April that I tried signing into my blogger account repeatedly and all I got out of it was "The username or password you entered is incorrect.". I actually do remember my password and my username but apparently my blog got deleted for an unknown reason. It's pretty much a long story but I've been trying to get it back ever since I got the bad news and I won't stop trying until one of the Blogger staffs tells me "You no longer have the right to see your blog". Each time I'd tell myself to make a new blog but it kills me just to think about all of my posts and drafts on my previous and first blog and knowing that there's a big chance of me to never see my blog, ever again. So it took me this long to finally put myself together and create a new blog. I'm not over it but I just had so many ideas and thought "Alright, I'll do this for myself and others (if anyone even reads it, I bet not, haha)". Blogging gives me pleasure and it makes me feel good while I'm typing in different posts so even though I'd like more readers or any at all I'm still fine.

So here's just a quick review on why my blog name is "My Little Thoughts". Since I'm pretty young (my age still remains a mystery, well at least for now) I have the impression that no one would want to read my blog. I'm not sure if I still go along with that but I chose to say it anyway because in my previous beloved blog when I first started doing the real blogging my first post was called "Why Am I Here?" and in it was a 3-4 paragraphed explanation and an new entry to my blog. So I think I should at least resume it in a few phrases because I'm not going to write a long post like I normally would. Anyway, the reason for my blog name is due to the number of the many people on earth (which is like 6 or 7 billion) and me being pretty young. Because of that my thoughts might not matter to most of the world so like I said in my previous blog "I'm here to blog whether you like it or not". Well, now that I think about it that's not what I actually said but it was something like that.. I think.

So may the blogging begin!

-VALy, <3